Random babble from me to you poor people

Well im am Nathaniel.

Don't have alot of to say at the moment, just thought i could write something on this random thing.
well i guess i could talk about the Joshua Harris Books that lizzy gardener has been spouting about on her blog on random occasions and for some reason i ended up in her blog, i would be the guy in the suit, yes i am that ugly. ok well to shed light on somethings that have happened in my life in the past couple weeks would either bore you or you are already bored and have come to my lonely corner of internet in search for entertainment of some discription which is just sad.

anyway life over the past few weeks has been interesting, i have been reading the joshua harris books on courtship which are just plain brilliant and really helpful, as i am a single male and well being 20 and gone through 1 relationship which was not God honoring nor healthy in most aspect really made me think twice about the whole thing, i have often asked God how long will i have to wait, well i'll tell you this, being 20 and male in this modern society can seem harsh and well almost as if im being punished, BUT! in all realness i have no character for a relationship and if i did have 1 it would be become as healthy as the underside of the toilet bowl and as stable as a the economy with Rud the Dud at the helm. so in plain and simple terms i my self have to keep commiting this want and requesty back to God and ask him to change what need change and help me out with this area of my life and this isn't easy when i think i may like a girl, you get these feelings, and you think you should presue them, but you unsure about submitting them to God because he might remove them cos its not ment to be, but seriously its far better to give up these feeling and let God do his will with them then you chasing a fanticey that turns out to consume and spit out a perportion of your life you could have be doing something preductive with. trust me it is easier to take the hard way out earlier then taking a harder road out later that can burn you up.

i am a chaplin in training and im trying to find Gods call on\in my life. so far i know im to do this course and that i will be single for some time, it both scares me to only know that much, but its also comforting to only have to know this much. now at this point you may be asking where is he going with this and to be completely honest im just doing one of my favourite past time which is just waffle on about random stuff in my life, and also again in a simple term im not going anywhere in particular. but also thats what a blog is really, someone who has reached the point of insanity thats so intense that try to broadcast there thoughts and there 1 sided conversation across the internet in a vain hope someone in a far off land will read it and say "Hey i know what you mean!." if you are this person and u are reading this my i politley ask u to "GET YOUR OWN PERSONALITY AND LIFE I HAD MINE 1st !!"

anyway it is getting late an i must be off to bed before my brain cracks my skull open and runs away in search for a place to rest.